Something gotta change

Something gotta change

Sitting alone in a bed, going for a midnight stroll alone or simply daydreaming; we find ourselves shifting our focus and thoughts towards what has been and what will be.

We seem to drift our attention from our present to contemplate an uncertain future or reminisce about our past. While the future is ever shifting and each decision will lead us on a different path, the past remains our nostalgic timeline where we might regret a certain decision. 

What happened to the present? I like many others, forget to live the current moment and dwell on past glory or promising future.

Sometimes you try to preoccupy yourself from the present as to overlook uncomfortable situations or avoid conflicts: you see people working hard whereas some hardly work. Some take undeserved credits, others waste their time at work.

When you used to matter for a friend, and all of sudden everything is more important than you. What was intended to be yours is no more, everything and everyone is replaceable. When they realize they can actually live without you and slowly drift away.

The sad truth is we frequently let ourselves live a hollow lie and be deceived because it is easier to let ourselves believe it than confronting someone, walking away or just leaving.

Nobody is daring admitting it to the other person, but change is coming and more accurately something need to change.  I want to be everything at once, unfortunately it is not possible and a specific part of your life will eventually take the upper hand.

We seem impervious to learning, when the same problems keep rotating and happening over and over; it is turned back to you. It’s your fault, it’s your move and it’s your choice.

Emotionally there for everybody, but when the time comes and it’s you who is in need few will answer your call and come to the rescue.  Why should they; if you set a pattern of you being a shoulder to cry on, a confidant and advisor every single time they need you. I guess it means you’re a super human and on the rare few occasions where you might be sad or angry nobody bothers asking.

It is flabbergasting how people can react differently with their surroundings: same time, same situation and problems only a different person to interact with. One person will be told all the sad part, the worries and anger whereas the second one will get the happy part and sunshine. What makes that person eligible to get ether part, shouldn't all your friends be treated equally? How come one gets consistently the negative while around other people it’s only rainbows?

Final thought before closing this chapter, if you delete it, it doesn't mean it is forgotten, whether it is a pic, a person, a situation you are trying to avoid… the physical fragment might be dissolved but the damage it has done is permanent, your life doesn't have a reset button. 

A wound can heal so many times, till it leaves a scar, a reminder that while it may have healed you will always carry a part of that trauma with you wherever you go.

          Finally, I am reminded of the immortal words of Mahatma Gandhi: be the change you wish to see in the world. Don’t expect others to change, quite the contrary be that change because you are incredible.

I recently stumbled upon this great but not so known song: Gravitonas-Incredible (Youtube) and I used to think that the phrase “you should know that you’re so incredible” meant someone else, but realized it actually can refer to yourself and not somebody else.