Dark Reflection

Dark Reflection

       (Before I start, I dedicate this post to Carol who recently stumbled upon my blog, and showed so much interest and support, you motivated me to continue with full force and sorry to my dear readers for the one month break but will explain it in an upcoming post). 

  Why are tears salty? A question I have never really asked myself, the answer when you think of it is pure biology and a simple one might I add: salt kills bacteria which are secreted through your eyes and help you heal.

However, the emotional reason couldn't be further from the truth, help us heal? Some of us already have trouble crying, I for one cry on rare occasions but when I do it is usually waterfalls.

Not all tears are evil, when you reach a boiling point, crying is one of the only healthy and normal outlets. But can it heal? If it does we wouldn't stop crying at every occasion. Can tears heal a broken heart? Can tears awaken a deceased loved one? Can they fill the loneliness and shatter the silence of the night.

Can tears make us happy afterwards? Can they fill the void in our soul?

I am not sure about that, all I know is at least we are showing emotions, we are not dead from the inside, a small light is still shimmering.

You cry when everyone has turned their backs on you, each to their own despair and life.

When you stuck by everyone’s side through every single ordeal, you turn your back for once second and you realize you have been deserted, a lonely trooper in the desert facing all odds.

If you pulled yourself together and managed to keep a veil, fooling your entourage for a second, what will lead you to despair is their nonchalance, they will keep stabbing you till the last drop of blood.

They are oblivious, fine!  But let them at least be courteous enough to leave you on your own.

Do you still recognize that person in the mirror? Who is she/he? Is it just a reflection, a dark figure with an empty glare?

Along the road, you lost yourself without even realizing it, life has taken its toll. However, your eyes see through it, you may be able to fool everyone but that voice inside your head will whisper you the sad truth.

Let us go back in time when things were simpler, it may be a couple of weeks ago or maybe ages, where was your sanctuary? That unforgettable trip to your favorite spot? In your mother’s arm when everything was safe? Or maybe enjoying a nice diner with that soul mate whom you might have eventually got married to or regretted letting them slip through your fingers.

Yes, life is full of regrets, but I wouldn't call it regret but rather experiences, may it be pleasant or may it be gloomy. We regret or miss something or someone only after they are out of the picture.

We only miss the warmth till it is cold, we only miss the light till it is dark, and we only miss the heartbeat till it stops.

You don’t care about anything anymore, you lost your passion, your motivation your drive, your essence. Let the wind take you in all directions, swirling to infinity.

You are scared of being intimate with yourself and opening up, keeping everything buried deep, trying to ignore those epiphany moments when the truth surges to the surface and hits you in the face.

The reasons and causes are just right in front of your eyes, you decide, you have every reason to stay, and fight, also inevitably every reason to surrender and leave.

Life is full of choices, we make it and stir it as we desire. Dare to be stupid, dare to make mistakes but never lose that innocence and purity at heart.