My life:the music

My life: the music

      Has it ever happened to you? When you are in a specific state of mind or emotion, you hear a perfect song that fits your needs. It is as if the singer is giving words to your feelings and materializing them.

It hit me when through a rough patch I heard coincidentally a song by Taylor swift:” Knew you were trouble” (  Youtube link )

Haven’t we all done it before? Whether it’s a relationship or not, deep down you feel instinctively that this situation might have a negative outcome yet you go through with it.

I agree mostly, it’s applicable to relationships: you say why not, or let’s see where this is going and out of the blue you find yourself inseparable form that person. When at the beginning you were pretty sure it was trouble, the sad part is you get attached against your best judgment and try not to over think about the outcome till it happens.

A fight or problem will leave you vulnerable because you went in too deep after you promised yourself you won’t.

On another note, I have noticed that these coincidences are very frequent with me, in good and bad occasions.  However, the last time it happened to me it was almost an infinite loop: in the car and especially in the restaurant where I was having diner, I was bombarded with songs such as: Someone like you (Adele), Titanium (David Guetta), Trust you again (Muttonheads)… All that while trying to talk about the relationship and the outcome on my date.

Furthermore, we tend to find ourselves in the same situation at work: out of need or routine you stick to a job you may not really like since there a no other opportunities in the near future.  Why you may ask?

In both cases it is the fear of the unknown, when get accustomed to a certain pattern it becomes your comfort zone, you try to make it work and patch it up even if you know at one point something broken cannot really be fixed over and over.

     In the end, it will take courage for that leap, to try and escape because in the unknown may be a great opportunity. However, if you are still trying to make it last and solving every problem separately it could mean also that you know it is worth it, it is worth fighting once more for what you believe is a key component to your happiness. 

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Experience vs Expectations

Experience vs Expectations 

This post is a bit disorganized and random, a collection of thoughts and feelings…

A single situation that hurts you can give you an unexpected outcome, in the end what you expected was completely different from what you’re living.

When you’re going through sleepless nights, feeling down, sad and hurt you should express your emotions in a way so they won’t consume you.

So let the words, music and rhythm inspire you:

Let it poor, let it rain; let it wash all his pain away.

The heavy rain slowly dripping on his face

Hiding the tears of today

As he walks alone in this lonely place

××××

Slowly but surely the tempest is drifting from the horizon

It will hit full force and unleash its power on unsuspecting innocents

Empty faces wondering by, do they see what dwells within?

He hides his sorrow in his bleeding heart,

Do they see what’s behind his mask?

×××××

What used to bring joy

Now brings sadness

The fragile flower is losing its essence

Its color, its vitality

×××××

How can they stand by unresponsive?

Ignoring every call of help

If his words fail him his sadness

Is loud enough

××××

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When to call it quits

Music –Language of the soul part 2

 

          This post is dedicated to a close friend who underwent a bad breakup, but it's also meant for every soul who is having doubt about their relationship or going through a rough patch.

You're not alone and this post is my second take at a somewhat lyrical expression of feelings.

I  made you an essential part in m life, while for you I remained an option

I spend my time thinking everything over, and proceeding with caution

Instead of living the moment, I had to be a step ahead

So I won’t get hurt, 

When I remember every word you said

I feel burnt for ever believing you

All I gave you was love and all I asked for in return was respect

I loved you and you loved me

But somewhere along the road, love turned bitter

You cared but never showed it

You loved but never proved it

I learned to trust that voice inside my head 

 

        When you are in a relationship trust your first instincts. If you feel there something is wrong the odds are you’re right. He tried to stick till the end because he loved her...He truly did, and she in her own way loved him too. 

    However, in his deepest heart he knew if it would last a year or three or twenty. There will come a day when he won’t be enough  and you’ll move on. This prevented him from actually living the moment and enjoying his life. Similar to a prisoner just waiting for the death sentence, but actually in that split second when you learn it’s over it’s a rush of mixed emotion but at least you will be relieved.

    He told her many times over and she knew exactly what bothered him , the only thing that was missing the only thing he yearned for was respect not love. When you love your partner and you don’t respect them there will always be a missing puzzle piece.

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Music-language of the soul (part 1)

Music is a universal language; I believe it’s the language of the soul for every song can relate to our mood, it can teleport us to a parallel universe where our imagination can run wild.

Close your eyes, and let a new world be born. Your mind is an empty canvas and the music is the color that will unfold a great masterpiece.

This is my first song-ish attempt, if you ever had a bad relationship or lost someone you love. This writing will relate to you. Have you ever been in a poisonous relationship, where you knew the person your with is just poising your life but still stuck to the end for some reason!

You may consider it a song, a poem, writing… Label it whatever you want to label it for me it’s the expression of my emotions.

Venom

Now we go our separate ways

It was decision time and each chose his separate path

I still remember the happy days

Before you unleashed your wrath

When you said you’re here to stay

Now I see how easy you go about life

Leaving nothing but betray

I know it didn’t take you twice

To toss me aside and stab me with a knife

But the phoenix shall rise from his ash

Even form the harshest soil, a single seed will grow and blossom

I won’t surrender to the clash

I was depending on your poison to live

Not anymore it’s time to suck the venom out of my life

Picking up the pieces of my broken life without you

I shall stand tall, no regrets

A broken heart can be mended back

Time will heal.

Hopefully my later attempts will be more in tune and lyrically correct. 

The passion is here just have to make it.

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